Thursday, September 22, 2016

seasonal confusion

I've made it safely to Tenwek and through my first two days at the hospital, so instead of working too too diligently on those presentations I need to finish for next week's critical care conference (I've still got the whole weekend, right?) I thought I'd squeeze in an update.

The first thing I'd like to clear up is that, for the record, it is NOT supposed to be rainy season here. We're emerging from the chill of July and August - months during which Kenyans in Bomet wear thick parkas and wrap themselves in scarves, though the temperature doesn't really get much below fifty-five degrees - and the short rains don't start until October. But with the exception of Tuesday, it's apparently been raining pretty consistently here for the past week. Which is not to say that they don't need it - they do - but if I wind up posting a bunch of pictures of mud and stormy skies, I want to make sure I've calibrated everyone to the fact that it's not normal. 

It does, however, give me a good excuse to wear fleece, flannel pajamas, and wool socks. All at the same time. Which I love.
view out my window of the road to the hospital

I'm staying at the guesthouse this trip for the first time in several years, and in spite of that, I've gotten so used to cooking for myself here that I've opted to do the same again. My apartment has an incredible number of windows, I have my own coffee pot, and the showers have been as hot as I could ever want. My only complaint is that my desk is high enough (or my chair is low enough?) that I feel really short sitting at it. Sidenote: can't imagine how short actually short people must feel sitting there. I keep getting invited to the Ganeys' house for dinner, but one of these nights, I'm actually going to give the stove a whirl.

The peds service at the hospital is not too hectic right now, which is nice for reacclimation. I think we may have discharged half of the ward patients home today, although we did also lose a child in the HDU who has essentially been in coma on a ventilator for the last several days without ever having a clear diagnosis. These cases, which I refer to as "encephalopathy NOS", can be particularly challenging, since our ability to arrive at a clear diagnosis, let alone a treatable one, is often rather limited, and it's hard to watch a previously healthy child deteriorate neurologically to the point that you can be certain they won't be able to recover.  In this child's case, I arrived at the end of the story, and so I think I felt the emotional weight of his loss less than the rest of the team, but it's always both sad and frustrating. Please pray for Allan's family as they grieve his death.

Another of my least favorite Tenwek diagnoses is rheumatic heart disease, something we essentially never see in the West because of our aggressive treatment of Strep infections. We had one known RHD patient on our service yesterday (who is actually reasonably stable, albeit chronically quite sick), and today we diagnosed a second, a 15-year-old girl whom we had been treating presumptively for tuberculosis. Except now maybe it turns out it was just her heart (severe mitral stenosis), and not TB at all. As bad as TB sounds, at least it's a diagnosis with a cure. RHD is not. Her heart already has evidence of longstanding disease (her right ventricular pressures are at least systemic), but because her heart function is still preserved, she may be still at a point at which an intervention (likely surgery) might greatly improve her long-term prognosis. We'll need a lot of wisdom as we navigate the next steps in caring for her, so please pray for that as well!

... and one of my interns just called to tell me that she is admitting a third decompensated RHD patient who showed up to casualty (the emergency room) this afternoon. Sigh. May I double my request for prayers? Thanks.

Friday, September 16, 2016

Normally I like to apply a bit more spit-and-polish to my writing, but for the sake of just getting something down, today I'm going to have to come straight to the point: it's been a very busy summer for me here in Boston, with lots of time (probably too much) at the hospital and two big transitions (a new role at work and a new home in JP). And two days from now, I'm departing my lovely new home - which is just now really starting to feel like home - for my next four weeks at Tenwek. 

It's been about sixteen months since I was last there, and I've dragged my feet intentionally, to some extent. I felt the need to be more present here in Boston, and I needed a bit of a break from the pace of work that is mandated by dropping everything and leaving for a month - but I also knew that furlough was approaching for Tenwek's long-term pediatrician and his family, and it felt right to postpone my next trip until they were away. But the feet-dragging is over, and in spite of the chaos in which I currently find my life here immersed, I'm getting on a plane and leaving. I am not ready, in almost any sense of the word, but I also anticipate being grateful for the jarring removal from my patterns of life here. Being at Tenwek is often both incredibly busy and exhausting, but it's exhaustion of a different kind, and I usually have dramatically more time for contemplation while I'm there. Once I get my power point lectures prepared, anyway. (Ugh.)

At any rate, it's my intention to write regularly. It helps me process, but it also helps me feel connected to friends at home. I'd appreciate prayers over the next few days for rest, focus (on the aforementioned lectures), joyful farewells with friends, and safety in travels.

I'll write again from the other side of the ocean.